I’m Sorry
Dear Eden,
I know it’s late, and something must be wrong because you’ve woken up again, so I’m sorry if I seem tired and grumpy. I’m sorry if you can feel my frustration and my patience wearing thin.
I know you don’t mean to get up in the night, or go to bed really late and I know when you scream it’s because you just need me, so I’m sorry that I struggle with that sometimes.
Some nights I relish the fact you’re up and I get to have extra cuddles, I rock you in your dark room and strain my eyes so I can study every inch of your perfect little face as you snuggle into
me and go back to sleep. I’m sorry that some nights I can’t seem to comfort you and so I cry with you, I want you to know it’s not your fault that Mummy is sad sometimes, Mummy’s just tired, and
scared that l am not doing a good enough job.
Just the sound of your breathing when you sleep makes me the happiest momma in the world, the little sniffles and deep sighs, I hope you’re dreaming of something wonderful. I’m sorry I sneak in
sometimes and disturb you, I just sometimes confuse myself when I’m willing you to sleep and then missing you!
I’m sorry that sometimes I have to leave you crying for a minute just catch my breath, it’s not your fault, I know you just want more cuddles on some days than others. I’m sorry that I get
frustrated because I’m trying to work or do chores or just want to sit in peace, I want you to know, that doesn’t mean I don’t want cuddles, or kisses or to play, it just means I’m trying to
restore myself for a brief minute so I can make sure I’m on my A game for you.
I’m sorry sometimes I am not perfect, all I want to be is perfect for you, but always know I am trying my absolute best for you, because you are the best part of me, and I never want to let you
down. You’re everything I ever wished for, so I’m sorry that sometimes I don’t always show that, but hey, I’m only human.
I love you always,
Mama xxx
