A little bit about me...
Feeling a bit conventional this week, so I’ll tell you a bit about me. For those of you who don’t know me, I’m a bit outspoken and would even go so far as to say a bit of a gob shite, and by “a bit” I mean “kind of a huge”. I am one of those people who even if I manage to resist the urge to say what I am thinking, which doesn’t happen very often as normally it is out before I have even realised I am saying it! My face unfortunately tells you what I am thinking anyway! From a very young age my parents said I was bossy (from that baby face you wouldn’t be able to tell, but I was!!!) as did my school reports!
Whether that was because I wanted my own way, or thought my own way was right (it normally is to be fair…) or whether it was just purely to show my siblings who was boss, I was always telling someone what to do. I also liked being the centre of attention, something I am sure all my close family and friends are really surprised about being the quiet introvert I am now (HA!) I really wasn’t happy when my parents decided to pop me out a baby sister to share the attention with, so much so I once crawled into her cot and bit her on both cheeks. Biting was something I was a quite a fan of as a kid for some reason, I am glad to say that for any of my friends, family and any future suitors, it’s a habit I have grown out of! But yeah, I was always pushing her out of the way when my parents filmed us dancing and making sure I was front and centre and narrating anything that was going on just to ensure my voice was heard – told you, I was a gob shite! And I am sure Karma is on the way back to bite me in the ass!
All in all, my childhood was pretty incredible, I am so thankful for the lifestyle my parents created for us and genuinely think that’s what’s given me the fire in my belly to create a great life for myself and for my future family. The type of parents my parents are has made my siblings and I the people we are today, they are just “normal” people, whatever normal means. Don’t you just hate the word normal – like who is normal? What does that even mean?! But anyway, they are extremely family orientated and worked so hard to give us an amazing lifestyle. They were firm but fair, allowed us to be our own people and discover and learn for ourselves, they tried to tell us (well, me and my brother, my sister was a friggin angel) but we rebelled - pushed the boundaries, but my parents aren’t the sort to ground us, we never got grounded ever, we went and sat on the lounge floor and had a discussion, like adults but in a way that made you just feel really guilty, not punished, which meant we actually learnt! I remember sitting on that lounge floor a few times! I still think I’m the same today with pushing boundaries, I am so damn determined that when someone says I can’t do something, whilst underneath my insecurities may be eating away at me likesome kind of deadly bacteria, on the surface you’re damn sure I’m going to try and do it, just to prove them wrong. Some say determined, my parents would probably say bloody minded and would still have me sat on that lounge floor at times if they could!!
I am who I am because of my family so I think this is the reason why I was so looking forward to having a family of my own, my Nanny and Grandad who were my Dads parents were the strongest most determined people I know, they both went through a lot of shit and always managed to get through – I know I get that strength from them. My Nana and Dada who are my mom’s parents are the most kind, caring and family-oriented people, no matter what happens, they have taught us that family is family and you always look out for each other – I get that from them too. Some of my Aunts are like 2nd moms to me, I am so close to them and they again have taught me so much about love, strength and family. My cousins are like my siblings too, we are mostly the same age, there is 12 of us between the both sides aged from 11 - 30 so we have always been SO close. My Mom is a vision of class, integrity and moral fibre, she is such an inspiration to me, I also hope when I am her age I look as good as her because she is bloody beautiful! My Dad is one of my best mates, he was the person who came with me to go and have my treatment and was one of the only people on earth who knew I was going to have IVF treatment when I did, he has been through some seriously tough times and has been dicked over by some of earths truest cretins but yet he is still such a loyal friend and family man, I don’t know how he does it. If I end up being anywhere near the kind of parent my parents are, I will be so chuffed, the bar is set really friggin high though – so thanks for that added pressure!! My little bro is a right fuck about at times, he drives me insane but he is fiercely loyal and protective, even when I don’t need him to be and pretend I hate it, deep down I love how much he cares about us, he is going to make such a good uncle, as long as maybe leaves some of his “life experiences” out! My sister is LITERALLY my life!!! I love her so much, there is a million ways to describe what an amazing person she is and how much I love her, but I realise I have banged on about my family for a long time now so ill just leave it as she’s the best person in the whole world.
I really enjoyed school, I was one of those people who messed about a bit but still managed to do alright but lunch time was definitely my favourite fuck about time! I honestly didn’t think I would enjoy college as much but college was better by far! I made the best friends I could ever wish for and genuinely had the best 2 years of my life!
After college I had a very brief stint at uni where again, I made the best friends I could ever wish for! I had an amazing few months getting pissed and doing no work before dropping out! I then went to work for my Dad for a few years where I became the office manager before I went and did a ski season and then travelled round Australia, NZ and Fiji! I then came back and decided I better get settled down so I did an advisor role before becoming a manager again within a few months. I now work in Motor Finance with an amazing management team around me for a really good company and I’m super happy and content. I then launched my own business partnered with a luxury hair care company on the side and been hussleing that ever since too! I feel extremely lucky to not only have 1 job I love, but 2!
Anyway, there was a point to me telling you all that my family and friends are a bunch of nutters but I love them anyway and its because I have grown up with family being so important to me which is what enabled me to make this decision. I have wanted a baby for friggin years, anyone who knows me well will tell you how much I mother those around me and having the support from my family empowered me to be brave enough to make this decision. We always need support in life, but that doesn’t mean we have to be in a relationship, we need people around us who are going to support us during the really bad times, cry and drink with us during the bad times, laugh with us during the good times and cheer you on during the great times. But more importantly we need people around us to lift us up, make us realise how amazing we are and how we can achieve anything we put our minds to. I seriously believe that you can do anything you put your mind to if you want it badly enough. So, I am so thankful to my amazing family and friends for never judging, never putting me down and for putting up with my constant shit, I couldn’t have made the decision to do this journey without you. For anyone reading this considering this journey and feeling a little lost and unsure, please reach out to me and we can chat. I would love to help you in the way I have been helped and supported!
I realise this week’s entry probably wasn’t crass enough for most of you weirdos who have a filthy sense of humour like me, so I’ll make sure I get back to the swearing and smut next week!!