There’s something quite magical about being on a unit surrounded by women being induced, and by that I mean there’s absolutely nothing fucking magical about it. And yes I know were all about to bring life into the world and yes I know it’s a miracle but honestly, the noises made by some of the women in there having exams, sounded like feeding time in the bloody Serengeti. I know they can’t help it but its just awful in there. Also, some dickhead had their shite nokia ringtone going off all night, like, who doesn’t have their phone on silent at nearly midnight in a room where you know 5 other women are trying to sleep. A dickhead, that’s who. About 1am I started getting contractions, they were coming about every 5 mins, they were manageable but I was worried about how long it would be before baby arrived so I called the midwife in who told me some women react “sensitively” to the pessary, made me feel like a right wimp to be honest, I was managing the pain but didn’t know when was the right time to call my birth partners in! They offer you paracetamol or co-codamol, which I think is hilarious, seriously?! That’s not going to touch the sides, surely?
It was at this point I downloaded an app, obviously, there is an app for everything these days! And it meant I could just push the button when the contraction started and stopped and it recorded it so I knew how often they were coming. They were every 5 mins but manageable, I felt so sick, I think it was the co-codamol more than anything else to be fair! This carried on until about 2:30 I think was the last time I remember them coming in and offering me some paracetamol, which I didn’t want as I thought it was a waste of time! I must have managed to get a bit of sleep as contractions died off about 4ambut I was awake again at 6:30 with them. My mom came up to the hospital around 8:30 and they were every 7 minutes by then but the midwives didn’t come and examine me until 10am when they said I was still 3cm dilated, WHAT THE FUCK. I felt like Rachel in Friends when everyone seems to come and go having had their babies while she is still not even half way there! Its so frustrating that your body isn’t doing what you need it to. They said they would take me through onto the delivery suite and try and break my waters though, so that pesky little cervix of mine must have come forward enough!
They announced she was a girl and my mom and Holly were in bits, I just looked at them and got all teary and said “She’s mine.” It was an incredible moment, the moment you get to meet your baby, I just couldn’t get over how perfect (and a bit gross) she was, how did I make something so perfectly together, she had these tiny little finger nails, and I made them, I made her finger nails. Such a weird concept, I still can’t get my head around it, its an absolute miracle. I just remember Holly and my mom in absolute bits, there was so much love in the room It was incredible. After everything had calmed down, Holly and I were talking and the next 2 sentences just completely sum up what an endearing and lovely friendship we have;
Me: So, do you think I have a nice vagina?!
Holly: Not anymore.